was just reminded.. today's shichang's one year anniversary in army.. (i mean today as in 3rd april lah..) so yucky.. i cant wait for this time next year when he finally gets out.. but then again, i dunno wat difference it would make cos then i'd be in australia.. (if im still alive and if i even make it lah..) so yucky.. hate all this.. hate ns so much man.. and you know, even though i can sms him and all that, i cant even hold a decent conversation with him before he gets busy or has to go off.. so it just gets worse and worse and the next thing i know, we havent spoken in like 2 million years.. you know how sad that is.. aiya.. just so depressing.. maybe i just have to learn to let go huh.. yea.. maybe..