scalding myself

in the shower
with water so hot
i havent done this since
i cant even remember.

like some toxin removal process
im so badly in need of
i think it works
but is only short term.

just standing there not moving
goose bumps start popping
i know i am thinking
but my brain isnt working
my feet start burning
my body's just heating
my heart starts pounding
and now i am sweating.
my pulse is racing
my head is throbbing
so freely flows everything
i think i am drowning
but really im scalding
myself.
but im not yet burning.