i am a cry baby.

so this is how it feels, for everything to be finally over.
i cant even begin to describe it.
how did everything suddenly become so great the moment you want to leave?
there's no shit, people are extra nice, no screaming, no issues etc etc..
seriously, whats up? it makes leaving suck.

i cried!!

i cant believe i did, and i totally didnt expect to
didnt even feel anything at all..! at all!!
it was all about getting everything cleared so my poor colleague doesnt get more swamped than she already is.
then when everyone is gone and im sitting there reading notes by myself..
i dont even know what happened to me.

the silliest bit is, i couldnt stop!! argh!
all through the bus ride home and till my front door..!
not that i was sobbing my heart out and alarming people or anything.
just well.. emotional i guess..

well. i cant turn back now right? (although i know they wouldnt mind haa)
i just have to look forward, and and .. and..?
.. well just look forward, i guess.
just head down, and work my ass off..
remember that i left for a reason, and that this is the right choice.
even matt said it was a good call, and i listen to him.
so . .. so it is.


oh my wonderful wonderful friend..
everything we've shared during the past 10 months, is more than i could ever ask for.
you know i will miss you so much so much.
**hugz**