its calm in the eye.

of course its gone.
what was i expecting?
in fact ive just been waiting.
waiting to see how long it would take.
right?
why am i so bothered anyway?
am i really expecting it to still be there?
forever?

frankly i dont know.
i guess this is not the time to know.
im so tired.
so tired by everything thats going on around me.
i hate change, i really do.
but i seem to be caught right smack in the middle of the biggest whirlwind.

i need to get back my focus,
concentrate on one thing at a time.
there's only so much (or so little) i can do.