i'm so sad.

and so the next day i woke up
with an extremely heavy heart.
the kind of day that was so overwhelmed with sadness
that my cup kept running over.
so randomly, without warning.
caught off guard, and till now i cant seem to stop.

im not feeling sorry for myself, no.
im just so sad.
that things became like what they are now;
so unexplainable, so helpless, so forever.
if it was any other way,
im sure i would have been able to get over it eventually.
but this.. just makes me so sad.
i cant even think of another way to express it.

no, its not anybody's fault, its not.
i know in time to come, the flowing will stop.. eventually..
but i think no matter how much time passes,
as long as the situation remains as it is,
it will always make me sad.