i'm tired!

im tired of trying!
of trying so hard and not succeeding!
its frustrating you know, about to drive me nuts!
i want to try, i do! which is why i try in the first place right?
but im so goddamn tired of it
im tired of randomly crying in the bus or train
it scares people, and im tired of embarrassing myself.
i should learn to deal with failure, that much i know.
but that doesnt mean i dont get tired.
my heart can break too.
i need help sometimes.
i get overwhelmed with desperation at times.
im only human.
i cant live on bread and water alone.

life is hard enough as it is.