flying by.

january is flying by really quickly..
suddenly its the middle of the month.

i feel like ive been working for 2 straight weeks.
and indeed i have.
was in my sister's office all through last weekend,
just cos they needed some help.
12 continuous days of waking up early to work,
anyone who knows me knows that thats just amazing.
so sleep deprived i was, the past week was just agonizing
i felt like going home sooo many times!

27 dresses with half the girls on tuesday,
free tix from andylala yay! saw him after such a long time!
i was so sleepy i was ready to go home!
and my friends all called me an aunty
for wanting to get back to watch my korean show HAHA
but the show is really funny laaaaa

this same korean show i made myself miss
to hang with the adam gang on wednesday.
first time i saw steph this year!
weird indian man from the prata stall wanted to shake all our hands
after steph very weirdly told him
i was from pakistan, and fiona from germany (i think).
steph also wanted to steal the carrot cake that a girl next to us was eating!

darren and the sister havent been around,
actually arent going to be around for another week and a half..
so have been trying to spend some time with the mom.
which is where my thursday and friday nights,
and entire weekend has gone to.
maybe i feel a little bad, that she was left all alone last weekend,
plus am occupied with dinners the next weekend..

in the past 2 days, i have spent almost 500 bucks.
which if you know me, is just pretty incredible.
but okay, at least they were pretty good buys..
whats even more incredible is
i think im going to be spending another 450 bucks
on this leather bag ive been thinking of.
yes my friends, i have finally found a bag i really like!

i met a lady in the lift the other day,
and ended up sitting in her car for a lift.
when i told fiona and cat, they were like what?!!
but why? wouldnt you have done the same thing?
apparently not them! makes me think that its not the usual response?
i dunno man!

popped into kenny's shop for a quick hello
after running away from a nearby coffee shop
that had birds walking around under the tables at peoples feet!
UGH thats just WRONGGG!!
fiona kept screaming and making me scared too!
anyway, i got so many updates from kenny man.
theres really so much going on..
it kinda makes me sad that im not really a part of all that anymore
if he can just afford to pay me enough
i swear i'll give up my benefits package and work for him..

whenever i remember my time at the bookshop
i start thinking about how im leading my life.
i think most of you would know that what im doing,
is just not me, not my style or whatever.
no, i dont think im wasting my time, or that i made bad decisions..
im just wondering if this is the way life is meant to be like.
that you just go through the motions most of the time,
then spend the rest pursuing happiness to offset the monotony.
i dont think im UNhappy, there isnt that much reason for it..
but i dont think im particularly happy either..
which makes me think i may have turned into some sort of robot?
living routine after routine after routine after .. .
shit, i dont even know how to be angry at someone..
or stand up for myself, or go for what i want!

ya okay, i dont really know what i want most of the time actually
i suppose just for everyone around me to be happy.
i just read from a friend's blog,
"That there is no individual happiness..
only happiness brought on with others."
so maybe thats a good way to start..
then i guess the rest of the time i will just be monotonising
routine after routine after routine after.. .